The Girl with A Broken Smile

She breathes through her existence. Somewhere, she has forgotten to live. Bad things have scarred her otherwise gentle heart. But her heart continues to beat. Although the beautiful rhythm of its beating has disappeared into nothingness. The thrill, the excitement, the cold shiver that ran down her spine every time she even heard his name has faded like a ripple in the ocean. It’s not that she hates him, or that she dislikes him. Neither is she left with apathy for him. She still loves, reminisces, dreams, cares and moreover, hopes. However, she tries hiding all of it under a thick, dark blanket of abatement. Abatement, which was a result of his narcissism. The thick blanket hurts her as it rubs against the skin of her melancholia. But she knows very well that the pain is nothing but a reminder of their beautiful past and his false promises of the future. And as she sinks deep and deep into the pool of loneliness, she still wears a smile, although a broken one, but it’s still there. She tries hard and walks along with the crowd with her head held high. Her flamboyant choices, pretty dresses and trendy bags are her way of proving to the world the lesser-accepted fact that it does not take a guy to ruin a girl’s world for her, it takes much, much more than just that. That she can be dying on the inside with unavoidable pain, yet she can keep it all hidden from others’ eyes, for the pain is her very own and is not meant for anyone else to see. She can still make men go head-over-heels over the most gorgeous curve on her body, her smile, and make him burn in the consuming flames of his own jealousy. She has finally come to peace with all the chaos. She knows that people change, love hurts, friends leave, things go wrong, but life goes on. Earlier, she used to forget time with him. Now she’ll just forget him with time. Because she still believes that she will be loved…again!